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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Why do we have to part when the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when someone bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end?
There are questions left unanswered,
Words left unsaid,letters left unread,
Love left unexpressed,promises left unfulfilled.
In a relationship,
One of the hardest things to do
is say goodbye and let go.
Its as hard as breaking a crystal
Bcose you'll nvr know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
The one who stay behind will be suffer,
Bcose there are left with memories of a love,
that was mean to be a love.
At the beginning and end of a relationship,
we are embarassed to fine ourselves alone.
Unfair as it seems, that the way love goes.
Thats the bittersweet drama,and risk of falling in love.
After all, nth last forever.
Eventually everything will come to and end,
without us knowing when
without us knowing how
without us knowing why?
And we must forget, not bcose we want to,
but bcose we have to.
It seems that everywhere i go,
eveything i do
every song i hear
every turn of the head
every beat of the heart
every blink of your eye, every breath you take
Always reminds me of you.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on my part.
Not all love stories ends with a
"Happily Ever After"
Sometimes we have to part becose of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it means happiness for others,
We have to cry to temporarily relieve the pain.
Every beginning comes to an end.
Like every dawn has its dusk.
Its's something that i can't control.
Its over.
He's gone. But life has to move on.
Goodbye doesn't mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken
letters will be read
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fufilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday


Thx for the song
Saturday, May 23, 2009

(L):Hembusan angin di waktu malam ini..
melenakanmu yang sedang dibuai mimpi..
(P):Tiba-tiba kau muncul di dalam mimpiku..
Tersentak ku dan terjaga dari tidurku.....
(L):Ku cuba lihat di sekelilingku..
Tiada tanda-tanda o0h dirimu sepinya tak terkata
Jiwa tersiksa batin ku merana..
(P):Mengapa oh bahagia di antara kita cuma hanya sementara..
Adakah sudah suratannya kita kan terpisah selamanya..
(L):Ku imbaz
(P):Kenangan
(L):Memori
(P):Waktu
(L):Bersamamu
(P):Mengikat
(L):Janji yang
(P):Terparti
(L):Ku tatap
(P):Kan lagi
(L):Potretmu
(L/P):Sehingga gugur airmataku
(P):Walaupon
(L):Seiras
(P):Semirip
(L):Wajahmu
(P):Tak mungkin
(L):Bisa menggantikan
(P/L):Cinta kita yang terjalin .
0o0o0ohh kekasih...
This is the song dat u gave towards me yesterday ard 7.43pm
I'm sori boi and thx 4 the song dat u wrote it by yourself.
You ask ika to tell me to forget abt you and move on wif my life.
Boi, how am i gonna forget abt you wen u gave me dis song.
Its reali difficult for me to forget abt you.
But i noe dat, one dae i will forget abt u and forgat abt our love..
Goodbye Jufri and find the perfect girl dat will tc of you..


I'm sori Jufri
Friday, May 22, 2009

Boi, i'm sori abt the other post,
I'm was so0o0o angry dat i just type watever i want.
Jyeah, mayb if i were in your situation, i wll belive my frenz den my own bf.
But if my own bf oredi told me the whole situation and he said "sumpah" infront of me. I shld at least trust him abit rite? But, u're different. U totally belive him just like dat.You didn't even trust your own gf.Not even a little bit. Naimah told you the real situation, but u nvr listen to her. U oso know her since primary skool but why?? Haiz..
Rite now, i just wanna burst on tears. I just can't take it animore. My heart reali hurt wat you did to me.
Sometimes boi, people can backstab thier own bestfreind even if he/she know each other for a long time.
I'm writing dis not bcose i'm angry at you. Its just dat i'm totally dissapointed wif you. I trust you alot and dis is wat you gave towards me. Thx eh boi.
Nemind, mayb we're not meant to be togther. Hope you will enjoy wif your own life and be wif a better gf.
I'm not a gd girlfriend towards you. I'm sori for everything dat i've done towards you.
Tc boi! And one more thing, I will never forget abt you in my heart and in my mind.
The girl who love you the whole heartedly
Nurbiha
To Arep,
I'm not angry at you. but i reali did not understand why must you did dis to me?
Nvm.I'm sori if i've been to harsh on you on the other post. I'm just letting out my feelings.
Once again i'm sori.


Thx 4 e dae bestie!

Thursday, 210509
*Wani, Zaki, Abby
*Bestie ku!
*A kish from me to Zaki
*Making love by eye to eye
*A Kish from me to Wan
*Wani and Zaki
*WanIciner
*ZakiAbby
*WanAbby
*Waniki
*Thx for the dae k bestie?
*My one and only Bestie!
*Muhd Faridzwan Shah!
*Bestie for life!
*Thx for being my frenz for almost 7 years
*My lesbian partner!
Early in the morning, text wan 2 wake up.
Ard 6.30am, text Zaki. Ask him to mit me under his block.
Mit him, den wen to prime mart. Wait for Wan and Naimah 2 came.
Fyi, Wan ngan Imah stop kat econ. Aku suruh stop pat prime, tapi drg salah turun! Hahahx!
After meeting dem, went to Pp for a while cose Wan wanna withdraw money from his bank.
Went to skool after dat. Reached skool ard 7.15am.
We went to our separates way. Mit dem again ard my classroom.
Went to canteen wif dem.
Slack2 at the canteen for a while. Wan bought for me Mango tea! Thx Pendek!
After dat, had our lesson as per normal.
During lesson time, something happen btw me and HIM! Haish!
After skool went back wif dem again.
Wan and Imah follow me and Zaki went bck home.
Me and Zaki quickly get changed and mit up under my block.
Took bas 3 and went to Pasir ris. Slack at 424.
But den, imah have to went back to skool again cose she need to pass up her assigment.
So, left oni Me, Zaki and Wan.
Ard 4 plus, Ella and and WaniCiner came.
Took alots of picture wif dem.
The best part is dat, wen we took the picture, Me and Wan act as if we r couple and
Zaki and Wani as a couple.
We exchange partner while taking the foto.
Hahahahahax! Its funi wen me and Wan need to act as if we're couple.!
Slack2 wif dem until 6 cose i nid to follow my mom and my sis gi Cp.
Went back home wif Zaki and Wani.
Reached home, suddenly got scolded from my mom.
Aiyaak! not oni me, my sis oso got scolded from her.
Sori eh sis, if u got scolded for nth just bcose of me.
Otw to cp, i didn't even talk wif my mother.
Hahax!
She bought for me the dress dat i want! Weeee!!
After dat, i talk wif her.
I noe dat she will do anitink to make me hapi so dat i cld talk wif her again!
Hahahax! i noe i'm bad! so wat??? hahahx!
Thx eh mummy cose u bought for me the dress!
Reached home, play com for a while.
Den went to sleep!
*wink*
xoxo,
abby



Wednesday, May 20, 2009

* 7 years of frenzship. Love you Bestie!
*ZakiO

Todae didn't want to skool.
Not oni me. Irah, ika and ifa pon tak dtg.
Hehehe. Malas sey nk gi.
*Sori eh ada aku tak gi skula ngan kau.
Ard 3, i mit naimah and wan under my block.
Slacked2 wif dem for a while.
Mit taufiq under his block.
Bual2 jap ngan dia.
Den, me,imah and wan went to PR.
Wan went home while me and imah went to Rc.
Something happen at rc.
Malas nak elaborate.
Make a move from there ard 6.
Imah send me at Wp bas stop. Thx gerl.
Reached home ard 7.
Duduk kat umah jap, ard 7.30, mit taufiq again.
Dis time dia jumpa aku pat bwh block aku.
Hahahx!
Saw Zaki under my block. I ask him to slack wif me den he said okey.
Sebelom dia lepak, dia gi ngaji dulu. Cute kan dia, Gi ngaji??
So while waiting for him, me and fiq talk abt our studies.
Oh gosh, he drop alots sey!
Apa nak jadi ngan mamat 2? Haish!
Abt 10 minutes, zaki pon turun.
Slacked2 ngan drg, den yanny dtg.
Abt 8 plus, fiq bergerak dari ctu. Cose he wanna mit his frenz.
So,left oni me,zaki and yanny.
Went to 102a, to mit up wif Mal.
Den make a move ard 8.45.
Thx eh krg cose u make my dae.
Especiali aku peh Best Buddy, Zaki.
*wink*

xoxo,
abby





There no skool for todae.
Its marking dae!
Jyeah! Hope i pass my exam. hahax!
*Dream on lah bia!*
Todae i were supposed to went out wif irah,ifa and hid.
Kita plan nk gi swimming at dwntown.
But at last i could not make it.
Cose something happen towards me and my parents.
Haish! Text ifa, told her dat i couldn't make it.
Sori eh krg, next time aites!

The whole dae i just sit at home.
Tapi dlm kul 6 gitu, me and my sis gi pondok jap.
Gi isap.
Den mit taufiq, cose i need 2 take something from him.
Tunggu kan dia pat bwh block dia peh lama.
Macam gerl2 ah 2 mamat! Hahahx!
Talk wif him for a while, cose dah lama tak jumpa.
Ard 6.30 i make a move.
Mit my sis kat pondok lagi.
Den we make a move.
At night talk otf wif SuperFiq.
had some conflict wif him, but at last kita dah okey!
Hahax! sori eh fiq abt the misunderstanding.
*wink*

Anyway, karang ni mak aku dah suka tgk video kuda kepang .
Hahahx! cute rite???

xoxo,
Abby



Monday,20May

End of our exam paper! Wo00oho0o0o0o!!
After paper went Pp wif irah,ika,ifa and yanny.
Had our breakfast
Den ifa and yanny waited for Amirul at Pp.
Me,ika and irah went home first cose we wanna watch Jangan Tegur at Ehub.
Reached home, quickly get changed. Mit ika first.
Took Bas 3 and went to downtown.
Mit Irah at dere.
Me and ika were late.
Sori eh irah.
Sampai tempat dia, at last tak jadi tgk citer jgn tegur.
Kita tgk citer uninvinted.
The show okey lah, kebanyakan terkejut.
Anyway, saw Amirah, Dewi and oso their frenz.
Drg pon tgk citer uninvited.
The show end ard 3 plus.
Den kita gi central. Beli makan.
Eat under irah block.
Den after dat, Mit jup at 115.
Bual2 ngan dia .
Anyway,sori eh ika and irah abt dat dae.
Haish!
Make a move ard 5.
Reached home ard 6 plus.
Thx for e dae aites irah and ika!
*wink*


Sunday, May 17, 2009

Today i will not be going out again.
Same goes as yesterday.
haiz..
Boring siak Hidup gini mcm.
Yesterday the whole day i watch video kuda kepang wif my mom.
If not, yesterday she were supposed to went out wif my Makcik,
Tapi pasal aku kat umah srg, den dia tak jadi.
She accompany me the whole day at home.
Thx Mummy!
At night talk on the fone wif Taufiq.
He talk abt his ex ni suma..
Wen i listen to his storey, I laugh all the way.
kekek sey dia ngan ex dia.
Talk wif him until 3 plus.
Thx eh fiq cose u wanna talk wif me at night even though u know dat u're tired on dat dae.
*wink*


Saturday, May 16, 2009

I MISH YOU!!!!!


Airport
Thursday, May 14, 2009

*Sol and Ika <33
*i love you 2 b!
*Solehin <33

*will upload more foto*

Yesterday had our maths paper 1 and ebs.
I love my maths paper 1 cose i know how to do.
*wink*
Ebs?? Hmm, its quite difficult. But still, i cld do it. Jyeah!
Finish the exam paper ard 12 plus.
Went to Pp wif Ika,Irah,Ifa,Hid,Sol.
Den antar Irah and ifa kat bas stop sampai bas dtg.
Yesterday, ifah and irah doesn't seem to haf any mood.And i don't know y.
Haiz!
Anyway, walk wif ika,hid and sol.
Den we plan to study together.
Teman kan hid alik umah dia jap. Siap2 ni suma, den gi umah aku.
Cepat2 siap, den tunggu sol ngan ika kat bwh block abt 15 minutes.
Punya lah lambat drg nak sampai!
Took bas 34 and went to aiport.
Bljar kat sana.
Had soo0o0o much fun wif dem!
Went home ard 5 plus.
Sampai punggol, slacked2 ngan drg sekejap.
Abt 7 plus we make a move.
Reached home text wif taufiq.
Anyway taufiq, sori eh.
I'll try to change. But no promise eh!
But kalo i berubah, I wan my Laptop!!!!!
Hahahahahahx!
*wink*

xoxo,
Abby


Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Yesterday study wif asri and yanny at cg.
At last dpt jumpa asri. Hahax!
But sekejap jer.Ard 4 plus he make a move cose my sis ngan lino dtg.
Dia rasa kekok gitu. Hahax!
Study wif yanny until 5 plus. Den we make a move.
Went to yanny house and had our lunch.
Kita masak sendiri.
Hahax! cute kan??? I know!
Abt 7 i make a move from yanny house.
Study at my house until 8 plus.
Den i mit amira for a while.
Borrow her geo book. Thx gerl!
Went back home and continue study.
Text wif Taufiq for a while.
His kinda a gd guy.
*wink*


Irah bby!
Saturday, May 9, 2009




Today went out wif irah again.

Mit her at the usual place.

Took the mrt and went to east point at simei to watch anugerah.

Punya lah ramai org kat sana.

Aiyo tumbi!

Mit my sister at ljs.

Had our Lunch.

Watch the anugerah until 8 plus.

Anyway, saw dis guy. He kinda hot. Tapi cuma sekejap jer nampak dia cose dia ngan family dia.Its not like i fell in love wif him. Cuma ckp jer dia hot. cose in my heart, i still love dat person!

Haish!

Oh yah, tadi irah byk kali malu.

Oni i know. Hahax!

Reached home ard 10.

Waduh2, hari2 kuar alik lambat.

Penat sey. Bila nak alik cepat jer, mesti end up alik lambat.

Aiyo!

Anyway to irah, stop making me jealous pasal kau terserempak ngan ridhwan tadi!

Takper, laen kali aku akan nampak dia jugak.

You just wait and see gerl!!!!!

Hahahahahahahx!



To ifa,

Aku mintak maaf pasal smlm eh gerl.

At first, kau lang aku jadi gi sengkang nye. dats y aku ckp okey.

But den at last kau lang tk jadi gi sengkang, gi kat downtown nye.

Bila kau msg, call aku, aku ngan tido.

2 pasal aku tak dpt reply.

Lagipon, bila kat sekolah, aku dah lang kat korang kalo kat dntwn, aku tak nk turun, pasal tempat dia boring.

Aku bukan nk take advantage ngan mak kau. Kalo krg taknk gi kat sengakang nye, just ckp. Aku tak kisah. Aku tak nk pasal ni kita gado gerl.

I'm sori. Hope u will forgive me b!


I'm sori...
Thursday, May 7, 2009

070509 is the end of our love.
Mayb we're not meant to be together.
No matter wat, u will always be in my heart.

I reali can't go on wif my life like dis.
If i keep on waiting for you, i know dat our love will fade.
Dats y i ask for a br8. But fyi, e truth is i don't wan us 2 br8, but i can't.
I don't wanna get hurt again and again.
I had enough being hurt alots of times.
Wen i told u dat i wanna br8 up wif you, on dat point of time, i reali2 hope dat u will said no cose u still wanna us to be together. But u didn't!!! u just said okey! Its reali hurts me alots! Mayb your love towards me had gone.
After putting down the fone call, i actuali cried!
Abt just now, i hope u will forgive me and oso my frenz.
She reali didn't mean to shout at you.
Dats e way she talk wif people.
Btw today is your birthday.
You shld be happy, but i tink i make it as your worst day.
I'm sori.
Thx for all those kisses, hug and your concern.
I know dat rite now u totally hate me cose of just now.
U said dat don't contact wif you anymore.
Since u oredi said like dat, i won't contact wif you anymore boi
Hope you will take care of yourself and oso hope you will get a better gf den me.
Take care AL JUFRI!

Im crying, my heart is breaking.
I told you how I felt.
And the feelings were not returned.
I feel as if i'm about to take
My very last breath, I thought
You were the one for me,
But obviously not...

My head is spinning,thoughts rushing around.
Trying to make ends meet,but
No ends meeting, nothing tying the knot.
My heart is pounding through disappointment.
There were moments we shared that made me think.
Does he like me, and others not.
But now its in the open the feelings we mutual.

My eyes feel like they are rivers,
Water rushing from my feet,
My heart feels like a broken vase.
Knocked of a shelf, shattered.
I feel as if i'm a corpse.
Being lowered to the ground.
I'm crying, my heart is breaking.

Even though I feel this way
I have to move on,
There is nothing there
and never will be
so I got to find the one for me
There are other men in this world
and one will be mine.


Leave me alone!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Why is dis happening towards me again?
Before having relationship wif you, u told me you are totally different from my ex.
U totally make me believe dat you're totally different from dem.
But wat i c rite now, u totally had the same attitude as them.
You told me dat u need sometimes to tink abt our relationship.
U just wanna be wif your frenz first den you will be wif me??
Wat do u mean by dat??
Frenz much more important den me?
I understand dat u wanna be wif your frenz, but can't u spent some times wif me??
Even for a few minutes.
Do u still remember e day dat i mit you and i said dat i cant mit you dat long cose i'm wif my frenz, but u told me dat to let her wait. And i agree wif you. I even let my girlfriend wait for me abt 30 minutes all by herself cose i wanna spent my time wif you.
You see, i tried my very best to spent time wif you, but do u ever tried your best????
Now, u said dat u don't wanna us to break up cose u still love me.
U said dat you need to be alone for the mean time, but for how long???
1 months, 2 months????
Tomorrow is your birthday. I was planning to mit you and celebrate wif you, but since u oredi said like dis, everything seem to be destroyed!!
Nvm boi, do wat ever you want and I can't be bothered anymore.
You can move on wif your own life until u're totally readi abt everything.
Hope the decision dat you make, you will be happy wif it!!!!!!
I won't take any first move to contact wif you again.
Let you be e one hu contact wif me again boi!
Anyway, rite now is 12 am! its your birthday boi!
Happy birthday Jufri! Hope wat u wish will come true!

Goodbye Jufri and Take care!


Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Today skool was fun!
Had a lot of laugh today in skool.
All thx to irah and ifa!
Anyway, hid, thx for the keychain dat u bought for me during your trip to gunung ledang.
Recess time something happen.
Me, irah and ifa run all over the skool.
Heehee!
After recess, slack in the class. Waduh2, exam is ard e corner but still, i got the time to slack.
Haiz bia2.. mcm mana kau nk improve???

After skool, went home wif hidayah, ifah and irah.
Irah and ifah accompany me to my house while hidayah went straight to her house.
Cepat2 mandi den siap.
Eat first at my house, den out we go0o0o0o0o.
Me, irah and ifa was supposed to wait hidayah under my block, but since hidayah was late,
me and irah make move first cose i need to accompany irah to her house.
So, ifa was the one who wait for hidayah to came.
She was not alone, dia ngan AMIRUL! *tak habis2 nak memotek jer!*
Accompany irah to her house for a while, den we went to ifa house.
Reached her house ard 5 plus.
Sampai umah dia, e first thing dat i do is to eat her nugget!
haha! buruk siak bia!
Study for a while at her house.
Then something happen during at ifa house.
Once again i fight wif him.
I dunno why, dis past few days, i seem to haf a lots of arguments wif him. Haiz!!
I told my "mummy" which is ifa mother, abt my problem wif my boifie.
She told me to give him sometimes to tink if he seriously want dis relationship.
Listen to her advise more den 15 minutes abt dis problem.
Haish. Anyway, thx mummy!
Ard 6 plus, mummy ajak gi swimming kat downtown.
So, qucikly get changed and out we go0o0o0o0o again.
Swim2 sampai kul 9.45.
Went home wif hidayah.
Reached home ard 11.
Waduh2, penat sekali!

Anway,
To syg,

B, i'm sori abt everything i've done towards you.
I know dat dis past few days we always quarrel just bcose of a small things.
I know i always the one who start the argument, but do u know y i always argue wif you?
Its bcose I just feel dat your love towards me were fading.
And i don't wan dat to happen cose i still love you.
Abt just now,i'm reali2 sori.
I know i shld trust you , but u try to put yourself in my shoes.
U imagine dat u wanna mit your gerlfrenz, but your gerl said dat she can't cose she got something on and you said okey. Den after a few minutes, u text her again, she said dat her father cancel the programe. Mesti you akan marah giler babs kan???
Mesti u fikir yg your gerl don't wanna mit u rite?? Dat is wat i felt wen u said dat to me.
And dats y i started to argue wif you but at last i said sori to you cose u wanna know y???
COSE I LOVE YOU! and i don't want anymore argument wif you!
I dunno if u still love me or not, but i just wish dat u still. Cose i still love u.
B, no matter wat happen, even if we always argue, i still love u no matter wat happen!
And dis is for you,

My thoughts, my dreams.
I never thought they would come true.
Days went by
And I was still dreaming of you.

The feeling I get it cant be defined.
When I look into your eyes, and you look into mine.
I ache at night cause Im not with you.
I wish so much that I could kiss you.

Your eyes, your heart, your touch
Jufri you mean so much.
Your on my mind 24/7.
When Im with you I feel like Im in heaven.

Ive made mistakes in the past.
Things the same, never seem to last.
Im sorry for all that Ive done to you.
But no matter what, I will always love you.


Sunday, May 3, 2009

Saturday, 2 May 2009

Early in the mornin, tex irah to wake up.
Mit her at Ws mrt station ard 10 plus.
Took mrt, went to east point.
Saw sufiyan inside the mrt, i just smile at him.
Reached east point, mit my sis and lino first.
Fyi, punya lah ramai org pat sana! Ribut sey org melayu kat east point.
Lino sign up for the audition. Tapi syg, dia tak dpt masok.
Bodoh peh judge! haiz!
Nemind, next time u can try again aites lino????
Anyway, congrats harman, cose u qualified to get in.
Saw danial at east point banquet, smile at him but he seem to forget me and irah.
Haish!
Abt 5, me and irah make a move.
Went to esplanade.
Slacked wif her. Irah saw dis cute + hot guy kat sana. Sampai dia terpikat sekejap.
hahahahah. Cute lah irah!
Make a move from there ard 8.30 cose both of us doesn't seem to have the mood.
Reached home around 10.
Talk on e fone wif yanny for a while.
Play my brother laptop for a while, den went to sleep.



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