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Spending time with WanShah

Friday, September 30, 2011

o.0.. Gambar lama kan?

Last Wednesday, went out with Wanshah. Our actual plan is to go out with Syahirah and Yanny. Enjoy our day with cycling. But Syahirah last mins have her own plan. So, its okay.
Around 1 plus, Wan meet me at my void deck, and we slacked first. Cause we literally don't know which place we would like to go. For me, i suggested to go grandlink since it's been so long since i last went there, but bestie would like to go cycling. And that point of time, i wearing a bit of lady-like and i don't wish myself to get tired and sweat. So end up, i suggested to watch movie and he agreed with it. Asked Yanny along, but she said next time. So only me and Bestie watched movie at Ehub. Watched Fright Night. Okay, i need to say this, I'M THE ONLY PERSON IN THAT THEATER THAT SCREAM LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS.
Hahaha, epic i know~.
Overall, i really had fun spending time with Faridzwanshah. This is my second time i watched movie with him. His a nice guy. I'm lucky to have him as my bestie.
5 years of knowing him was a best part of my life. Sayang kau Muhammad Faridzwan Shah Bin Ibrahim :D

Missing you badly

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

All i knew is that i miss you a lots, even though, how many times you scolded me, saying vulgarities at me and ignore me, i still love you. That's the truth. :(

I'm sick of getting my hopes up for nothing.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Things getting complicated day by day. And im not sure if i can hold on to it anymore. Just when i thought that we will be going back as per normal, things started to be complicated again. Arguing none stop. You act as if I'm totally in fault. You keep on pointing out that fingers of yours on me. Helllooo, i have feelings okay. I don't deserve all this shit. Its like, our everyday routine. To argue almost everyday and as for me, to cry every night. I can see you slowly turning into the person you promised you'd never be.

FUCKFUCKFUCK

Sunday, September 25, 2011

APER KAU NK BUAT DKT AKU!! KASIK AKU MERANA? KASIK AKU SAKIT HATI! AKU DA PUAS NANGIS TENTANG KAU! BAPE LAMA LAGI AKU NK KENA TAHAN PERASAAN NIE! MANE JANJI2 KAU YANG KAU CKP KAU AKAN BERUBAH. KAU SKRG TOLAK AKU KETEPI ADER AH!! AKU DA TAK TAU APER AKU NK BUAT!!! AKU SAKIT HATI NASRON! AKU SEDIH DGN KAU NASRON!!!!!

Sometimes it sucks being strong because when people know, they think it is okay to hurt you over and over again.

'It's hard to completely stop loving someone after so much time has been invested. It hurts to just give it all up'

Right from the start, i know about your attitude. I know you're the type that is playboy. Love to contact with girls even though you already have one. But, back than, i was a stubborn girl. I heck care those thoughts about you. On the day im with you. Our love story started. Things getting loving and at the same time, disappointing. Even i gave you umpteen times of chances, i guess, you will never changed. Its already 2 year plus we have been together, why can't you be loyal to just 1? I know, i used to make a mistake. But on that point of time, i was trying to take a revenged, to let you feel how hurt it is by being timer.. But i was so stupid, nothing i do, will make you changed. Karma hit me several times. I wonder, how long does karma wanna hit me? You did to me lot of times, when i just did 1 time. Sometimes, i keep asking myself, why do i still wanna be with you when i know, you're not that serious with me. I know i can find other guy that is way better than you, but why do i still hold on to this relationship? There's some reasons, that you can't explain, not because you don't want to, but it's because you just don't know what is the answer even though the answer is just right in front of you.

Someone have said this before, 'You just heck care what he did to you, one day, he will get tired and he will realize his mistake'

But how long does it's gonna end? How long must i suffer in silently? How much longer do i have to cry every night? Pretending that everything is okay when it's not is one of the most difficult thing to do.

Monday, September 19, 2011

NOTHING MORE I COULD SAY. NOTHING I DO, WILL CHANGE YOUR BEHAVIOR.

September, a new month but its nothing new.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

I know, my blog is getting dusty. Oh well, no one is gonna read it anyway. Its already September 2011. Its the month of Hari Raya. This year raya is not as exciting as previous years. I'm not sure why, but the feelings, the atmosphere is totally different. I guess, everyone is busy with their own life. Hmm, change topic.

What should i start with? School~ It's the same routine everyday. Nothing new. BORRRRIIIINNNGGG~ Chey! Fake! Last Tuesday i had my CA. Hopefully i pass. Its OK if I didn't get a wonderful mark, but as long as i pass my CA, alhamdullilah. But i'm sure, my parents gonna be disappointing with me, like every year. Not gonna elaborate more...

OH YAH! I almost forgot, it's already 2 YEARS & 1 MONTH WITH NASRON. :D Bf surprise me with Vans shoes, Sandal and he pass me $$ to rebond my hair. Aww, bf is getting sweet . SAYANG MATAIR AKU YG BERNAMA NASRON! :D