I miss this friend of mine. I'm used to be close with her. We always went out together, do things together, share about our secrets and also our problems. When every time i had problems, she will always let her ears to listen to my problems. She will tried her best to cheer me up with her stupid jokes, her loud laugh and also she will told me about this person which me and her used to admired.
I still remember those times when every time i went out with her. Went to town to look at those hot2 guy(wen i'm still single), rilex our mind and also criticize on peoples. And also i used to go to her place and study for our test. Okey, Faked!! Actually our main reason to look at that 'person'. We waited one whole day at the void deck just to see him. Hahahax! Sanggup kan kita? Jyeah.!*wink*
But now, everything is gone. No more town, No more going out wif her, No more slacked at her void deck. Everything happen because of me. I'm the one who maked us drifted apart. All thanks to my attitude. Since the day that i attached, we didn't spent time together. I busy with my own things and she also busy with her own things. No matter how busy she were, she would tried her best to ask me out, so that we could spent time liked we used to be. But i always keep on cancel our plan. All this while she started to piss off with me, but i didn't know. Until one day, i really make a big MISTAKE and she told me how angry she were with me.
We fought with each other and we almost break our friendship. But thanks god that she forgave me. But somehow, i could see that she still angry with me and hate me. Because this past few days, we have not been talking with each other even though we are in the same class. We are like totally stranger. This is like how we used to be, before we get to know each other.
All this while, I've tried my best to talk with her, but it felt akward. Evey time i looked at her, i wished i could stand in front of her, said that i'm seriously sorry and i want to hug her really tight, but i know that i don't have the gut to do that. I miss her alots and those times when i'm still close with her. Its too late to regret for what that already happened. Right now, the only things that i could do is to pray god for her safety and hope what ever she do will be better.
This post i just want to let out my feelings. And gf, i know that you totally hate me and i know that you won't lose anything if our friendship break, but no matter what, i still treat you as my friend even though u hate me alot. Thanks for all those times when we used to spent time together. I really enjoys going out with you. Hope you will happy with your life. Tc and Goodbye '_____'
Labels: Frenzship that will never be build up again.
